Fun Fact Friday #4

When I'm depressed...

I want to be alone.

I want someone to just listen to me and let me be sad and just talk it out.

I don't want advice or someone to try and cheer me up or fix it. Just let me vent.

I need to write things down. I used to write A LOT when I was in high school and up until I was about 21 or so. I have a box full of either 13 or 16 journals, I can't remember exactly how many. They are numbered though. The first notebook I ever wrote in my boyfriend at the time gave me, I was about 16 or 17. I was really depressed and mad all the time (went to doctors and was on meds, the whole 9 yards. I was your typical pissed off, gothy teenager.) He suggested I try writing what was on my mind to get it out of my head. It helped immensly.

I also want to do nothing. Like just lay on the couch or stay in bed watching movies.

I go through cycles of being super duper happy and content with my life. Then at other times I will be really sad and depressed and just feel hopeless. It's a pretty normal cycle and I think it's kind of natural. It's the ebb and flow of life, sometimes shit sucks and really brings me down. Then there are times that everything is awesome and I am happy as can be. I think because I went to all those shrinks and write things out I am more aware of my moods. I know when I am sad. I am fully aware that I am depressed and that I need to just push through it, take in and try to fix or leave alone whatever is bothering me. There will be an end to it. I will be happy again.

What about you?!


Fun Fact Friday Disclaimer:
I found
The Imagination Prompt Generator and loved the idea of writing posts based on its random prompts. Every Friday I will share a lil' something about myself based on these prompts. I see it as a means of sharing a bit more about myself with you! It will be a random topic or question and my responses will be pretty free form and random as well. I'll of course edit for spelling and punctuation but I want to just let it flow for the most part. I hope you enjoy and maybe even join in!


Yadira said...

I too go through these cycles, and believe me, it's hard for me. I know what could make me feel better but I just don't feel like doing anything. If you ever need someone to talk to you can send me an email or something, I'll do my best to not try and cheer you up. ;) Take care!

Sarah Monster said...

I get depressed too. I finally got to the front of the list at psychological counseling at my school but i was feeling good so I never returned their call. IDK if it's weird or not, but I've really been hanging onto the ideas of Life Design & how we have control over our thoughts (see jessicamullen.com for exactly what i'm talking about). I like it because if gives me more control over how I feel. Granted on a night like tonight I'd rather get lost in a bottle of red wine, it is nice to have a system of positivity to fall back on.

Jamie said...

Yadira - I know exactly what you mean about knowing what could make you feel better but just not wanting to do anything! I think I may definitely take you up on this offer. I find that sometimes I get so overly inspired that I get bogged down with too many ideas and then end up doubting my own abilities. So a fellow crafter may be able to help snap me out of it!! <3

Sarah - I will be checking that site out for sure! You are probably the most self aware person I know so I'm excited to see what this is all about. Also...you ever feel depressed, you can gimme a call or text, I'm here for you!